I miss him

It's been 2 months. Maybe I shouldn't be so quick to let Matthew go.. Just because I *thought* I wasn't ready for a relationship, I unintentionally hurt the feelings of an innocent person. I miss him... I don't know why...

I miss how Matthew will call and SMS me every single day and I just miss being with him. Apart from Brenda, Ellise and the rest of FabG5, he is a wonderful guy companion, and each time he hugs me I just feel so reassured that I will not live alone in this life...

And all of a sudden, I just made a rash decision on impulse, and ended it all. It's plain stupid, I'll say... I always act before I think...

Matthew is Brenda's cousin, and she was pretty pissed off with me when the whole saga happened. Luckily she has more or less cooled down now, same goes for Matthew... But I doubt he will ever forgive me...

Sorry Matthew... :'(